struggling with a heavy case of blues. made it thru the day with required and expected social appearance, but emotions crashed on the drive home after work. forced myself to take a walk at Aspire with NextFit cranked to drown out everything else, but it was only temporary fix. i'm here as usual, by myself except for cats. alone by choice, but sometimes it would help if i weren't so alone. or at least felt less alone. then again, selective of company i keep. the ones i want to be with are furthest away and haven't a clue to how i'm feeling or what i need. and the local who use me for time and talent are the least i want to spend time with. sucks to be me.